i don't understand myself. i don't know how am i feeling now. is it jealousy? or anger? or just feeling stupid to ask a stupid question at a stupid time. i very well knew that i will be affected by the answer and i went ahead to satisfy my curiousity. and it killed the cat. i just feel like crying. for no particular reason. tell me.. someone. why. why am i so weak. why do i feel like crying. why do i spend my sleeping time talking on msn every night, and yet feel contented after every conversation. why am i only interested in fish and chips. why does my heart ache so badly. why am i so naive. why did i buy a diamond ring for myself. why do i feel so lonely. why do i keep smoking like nobody's business. why. why. why.

i don't understand myself. i don't know how am i feeling now. is it jealousy? or anger? or just feeling stupid to ask a stupid question at a stupid time. i very well knew that i will be affected by the answer and i went ahead to satisfy my curiousity. and it killed the cat. i just feel like crying. for no particular reason. tell me.. someone. why. why am i so weak. why do i feel like crying. why do i spend my sleeping time talking on msn every night, and yet feel contented after every conversation. why am i only interested in fish and chips. why does my heart ache so badly. why am i so naive. why did i buy a diamond ring for myself. why do i feel so lonely. why do i keep smoking like nobody's business. why. why. why.